i'm back !!

yea, from work.. -_- i just got back from work at this late hour.. n mind u, i am on morning shift today. But whatever, i just do my part so that the other shift people wont be too busy in the night.

I began to find out that by just ignoring my boss n take it as he is barking like a mad dog, i really felt better. I dont care if he doesnt dote on mi like last time so long as he dont come stepping on my toes.

I found out tt its all in the mind, i can really be oblivious to ppl around. I dont care. Sure, i am searching for a better job, but no one seems to pay as high as my current. So i am stil deciding. I went to schering-plough for an interview tt day. It was definitely the toughest one i ever came across. 3 engineers were firing questions at me like there's no tomorrow. All the questions asked were so from the text-book.

What pressure does the distillation column operates in?

What do u do if a pump is spoiled?

How do u heat up the crude material?

How does the LOTO system works?

What the main components of a plant?

The different working permits n their uses?

What is teamwork? How do i ensure tt in my team?

Blah, blah, blah...

I admitted i was quite thrown off the chair at first, but confidence came back soon. Though not all my answers were 100% correct, but at least i know my stuffs. They offered me the project engineer, asking mi to choose between that and chemical technician.

But stil, it wasnt the petroleum industry. So i am still deciding.


ooo.. n i cut my hair real short! i dont know why the sudden urge. But i just felt like doing it. Suddenly, everything seems lighter and i cant seems to know why, I am optimistic once again.

I am loving my hair ! =)

These few days... things had been really bad at work.. I got to say i really had the urge to say "I QUIT!" right in the face of my boss.

Imagine he made 3 of us cry within these few days.. Tuesday he was in his stupid pms mood, making life difficult for everyone. Such a jackass. He said hope that sat's samples would be alot, let us do. The "us" is refering to me n bec. Just bcos of a tiny incident last fri, he bore the grudge till now.

He just dont get it.. n he went home w/o even asking if it is ok for us to stay and help out.. He just took it for granted. Before he went home, he came n scold me saying why didnt i ask all the analysts to update the results. He's the boss, shouldnt he be doing tt? I cried. I was really sobbing really hard. Ppl from other dept came over to comfort me saying everyone in the lab knew he was like that, asking mi not to be bothered by wat he says.

I went out, n Bec was crying too. I was comforting her, in the end i cried too. So Kc came over to hug me n comfort us.

Ytd he made Eve cried. Four of us are so fed up with him that we decide that to quit already. The worse thing is there was alot of samples ytd, kind of unusual. He dont wan me to go home, but i told him i was really very tired already. For 2 days, i stayed till 11 plus, i badly need a rest. His response, he gave me a super du lan face, saying he got things to do. Asshole! As if i dont have my own things to do. I have my own life, i dont work n work like nobody's business. I couldnt be bothered. I just told him i am going home n i went back.

Today, he was in a much better mood. But early in the morning, he came, instructed me to help him check thru all the results n release them. All these are his jobscope. Sucks! Today he asked me to stay to help again. Haiz.

MY BOSS IS AN ASSHOLE!!

Recently, there's a big issue going on within my departments. Fri, the last night shift, I was already trying my best to finish the repeats, pretests, problematic tsa samples. Yes, i know we had to release the batch of results. But we tried our best, n in the midst of all the work, i stil manage to clean up all the bottles n label them.

But wat we got back, were harsh words saying we were a let down. Why? just bcos he had to wake up early tt day to help release the results. Fuck. Its not even our job responsibilites to help u release results.

The words my boss said to me really bothered mi, all the way till night, even at st james i was stil thinking abt it. I reflected on this issue n i really had to say i couldnt find anytime where we both were slacking. We didnt even had an breaks.

Everyone, my frens, lucas, my mom all told me to quit this job. The working hours are really terrible. Despite working shift, we stil had to work ot, and i can easily hit to 40 hrs. Sometimes even to 70 hrs. I just dont like the fact that he takes it all for granted, that we are supposed to stay back after our working hours to help him clear off the samples.

Today at work, i refused to talk to him. I spoke to rebec abt this issue, n i was right, she really didnt take it too well. She cried quite badly bcos of tt asshole.

He really chose the wrong person to vent his nonsenses on. If he thinks we are slow, i am really gonna show him wat slow is. I make sure all his results are haywired. Why should i give a damn abt how he feels when he doesnt care abt all of us either.

But whatever, i stil managed to complete my elements n ashing part before i go home. Its quite sth really, considering its monday when the amount of samples are unbelivably alot. I rushed n pushed myself harder to finish up everything, definitely not bcos of him, but bcos i hope the later shift ppl will have an easier time.

I hope i find a better job soon.

Today's night shift n yet for the first time i had nth to do.. really practically nth.. so ya, i am blogging now.. cos i simply have nth to do..

Last weekend was chalet for jr, lz, az n elaine at pasir ris.. me and agnes met up early to queue for tt donut ! stupid long 4 hours of queuing, but the donuts were really very nice.. anyway, we reached there n waited outside for them to come back. Everywhere around us were having bbq, so tt stupid Lucas kept complaining that he missed bbq food. In the end, a few of us had a mini-bbq. Very weird. I dont wanna say much.

Mayb i am being over sensitive. But anyway, i just kept to myself during the whole chalet. Just didnt feel that interacting with anyone. We went to Wild Wild Wet on Sunday. After wards, i went home. Talked to rh over the phone, kind of sian. I still feel weird la no matter wat he says. I was quite pissed off at a moment of time. But its over, so didnt bother me much.

Labour day, all of us went to watch spider man 3. Wasnt nice, too much toking, only a little action.

These days, i think i am feeling a little paranoid n depressed. Dont know why so. But i just feel maintaining a friendship is so difficult. Kind of sick of doing anything. I will just let things be.
Mayb i have changed, no longer the little girl who will do anything to please almost everyone. I just realised that not everyone is worth the effort.